So Bonni is still a big pain in the ass. Nothing has changed there.
I'm running again, and trying to loose weight. BUT NOT DIETING. Because that's just too much pressure.
I'm *averting eyes, avoiding people's "looks"* actually enjoying running. I. know. I really can't believe it. I'm running every other day, and walking every other day, and I'm finding that I enjoy the running days better. I'm doing that running thing I was doing last summer, but this time it's much easier... so my body must remember SOMETHING from then.
I'm also not eating after 7 (ish) pm. I'm HUNGRY, but I tell myself that all my "stores" will get used up this way.
I'm also realizing that exercising is more of a mental challenge for me than a physical one. When I'm running and I feel like stopping, I ask myself- does your body or your brain want to stop? And it's usually my brain. What the fuck? All these years I thought my BODY was too out of shape, and here it's my MENTAL STATE that needs some work. Huh.
I don't like to talk about dieting/trying to loose weight/exercising too much with my BrinkandMortar peeps, b/c then I feel as if they are sizing me up all the time, wondering if I'm "sticking with it". Which is why I'm sharing this with you, my apartment sisters.
I'm also starting to think that maybe, just maybe we are done having kids. This is huge. I've never thought this way before.
I'm craving vegetables. I usually like vegetables JUST FINE. But now I'm craving them.
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WOO HOO for you!!!!!
Look at you go! I enjoyed running when I did it, but somehow I feel out of the habit and I can't seem to get started again. Maybe tomorrow...
I feel the same way - it is always my brain stopping me and not my body. I used to take a weightlifting class at my gym and the teacher would yell "the weight you're lifting weighs about the same as your gym bag!". I used to love to run but I don't love it when I'm breastfeeding. There aren't enough sports bras in the world! Good for you, with your small changes, I think that's the way to do it.
This makes me SO HAPPY!! I hope it's continuing to go well. I absolutely agree on the mental challenge. That's why things like eating well and not snacking at night are so much harder for me. I could use a little inspiration that way, so thanks!
WAY TO GO CHICK!!!
One change at a time ~ but the running is a great first move.
Now can you come drag me out of my apartment & force me to run with you?!
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